okay, so you know when you think about what would happen if you started dance lessons at a younger age? like you would probably have been a better dancer, and made dance company earlier, and maybe went on so you think you can dance and maybe became a professional dancer?
or maybe if you weren't so sheltered? you would probably have had better self-esteem and not have been so incredibly insecure and maybe ran for varsity cheer captain in high school and maybe won prom queen and sterling scholar instead of making bad choices just led to a downward spiral of lower and lower self-esteem?
or maybe just cool things like knowing how to sing and play the guitar in your sleep? or taking back every negative thing you've said to someone? maybe not totaling your car at 11:00 pm on a school night driving back from your crappy boyfriend's house in layton? or not quiting piano?
or just countless things you imagine in life and dream up differently, and somehow you are more sucessful and more happy? a better version of yourself and a better version of your life?
none of them work out for me anymore.
none of them work, because none of them would lead me to where I am now.
and that's absolute bliss,
in love with marriage and motherhood.
:) love
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